I give up.

I am so tired. And so very very sad. It's like no matter how hard I try, no matter what I do whether it be finances, school, personal goals, whatever I am thwarted no matter my diligence, my effort or what have you. Just when I think the way is clear, the sky is blue something happens that takes me right back down to the gutter again. I am beyond frustration, beyond tears, beyond depression.

I give up.

The only positive I have left in my life are the girls.

And I'm terrified I will fuck them up too. Just like everything else.

I. Give. Up.